Bored.

Muchos falsos en facebook, muchos hipsters en tumblr, y twitter no me termina de cerrar.

Realmente no encuentro una red social que me agrade, así como tampoco estoy hablando tan seguido con mis amigas. What happened to me? 

2010.

Tampoco puedo/quiero salir, el clima realmente arruina mi humor. Hasta ayer estaba todo bien, de hecho, hasta hoy a la mañana. Le dije de salir a Markita, pero justo no podía. Igual no es por eso, es porque hace frío y ODIO el frío. El frío me hace pensar, y no necesariamente cosas positivas. 

Me parece que necesito leer y ponerme a dibujar. I mean, really. 

Gotta take it out of my chest, been a long time:

I feel like I've lost a best friend, it's like death. And I can't even say a word about it, like for real, I hate this. We used to hang out ALL the time, talking about anything ALL day..and all the sudden she just stops. It was like wierd at the begining, but kinda aceptable. But then I find out the reason behind everything, and I was like "What? No, please don't". 

It's my fault, because I should know before, all the signs were there. So.. after THAT it's so hard to trust again, like in.. anybody. Except for my bf, he's like the only one that I can be around and feel like myself. 

I wanna stop thinking about it, because it fucking hurts. Like, I feel so guilty and stupid. And lonely.

I've never had to many friends, but whenever I kept somebody around it was because I funckin' felt it, it was true friendship. I've never liked fakers. Rather just have a few hommies than a big bunch of liars.

But the thing is that... I trusted her, and like I really, really love her too. Y'know, sister's love. And now I feel empty. A white wall, the nothing it self. 

Like if all that love was a lie, even it weren't, y'know. It's weird .

Besides,I'm so shy, I want to talk with a bunch of persons, like persons i know from the school or whatever, but I feel like I'm bothering them, so I just don't. And I stayed there, alone. 

So basically, sometimes I'm really mess-up, and really depressed. And sometimes I think that is all because of that. 

But whatever, I'm gonna change my mind in a few days, i guess. It's what  always happens.